Guilty

I'm feeling increasingly guilty about leaving town in light of the fact that I have SO much to do at Pathways.
I realize I'm only going to be gone for about 4 days and that I will, in fact, be working my butt off photographing three days worth of nuptual events. But still.

I lack the capacity to take it easy. I so envy that trait in others that says "I've done my work, now I can rest." I always feel guilty, like I should be doing something else. Often, instead of asking people "How ya doing?" I will say things like "So what are you working on these day?"
I caught myself doing that one day a few weeks ago.
I think that in itself is a very telling turn of phrase.

Somehow, I must subconsciously think if I am not busy I will die. :-)

Every year I promise myself I will slow down, and every year I seem to try and fit in more. Some months I'm better about it than others.

Reminds me of the song that says:

She never slows down
She doesn't know why but she knows that when she's all alone, feels like its all coming down